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things never get better in this house....i come home i was gone from 345 to like 830 cuz i was babysitting and then i helped clean because they are going to maine tomorrow so yeah i stayed there. i come home and 5 mins after i come home my mom is screaming and bitching and wont shut up and it ended in an arguement. im sick of everything. i hate yelling. i hate screaming. i hate crying my eyes out in the shower. i hate that i have to cover my mouth so the cries wont be heard. i seriously had a mental breakdown. everything is stored up inside of me and now this is whats happening. everything has been going great at school. i havent had any problems and everything is fine. but yeah, i hate everything is fucked right now.

EDIT: Yeah i overreacted..my dad lied so i got really mad.. but im still really pissed at him...

( im going to rant about some things. you've been warned... )

my birthday is in a week. im so. fucking. excited.

today was a slow, boring, but yet easy day. first per. i got to watch simpsons episodes lol. i was supposed to film my campaign thing but mr. wanzer wasnt there so....


i keep having random shit keep popping into my head. old memories that i didnt want to remember. things that drive me NUTS. gr. things that i shouldnt be thinking about at all. a few things have been bothering me that i'm not going to mention here....but it just irritates the fuck out of me. i hate being like this. i'm sick of feeling like this!!! it ruins everything. im stuck in a place where everything is just a negative feeling...where all the words out of my motuh come out in a negative way or say negative things...either about myself, my friends, other people, or the way my life is totally and utterly wrong. i need some time to myself......like, alot of freakin' time.

not trying to sound like a depressed asshole, because i'm not, im just simply not happy. not happy with me and its really hard to change how i am.


"Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete" ~incomplete


totally fricken love that song.

my honey's bday is this saturday. i wish i was there to celebrate with him </3. done rambling. tata my honey's. xoxo ~Jen

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happy thanksgiving ya'll....well lets see..today was our annual football game vs fermi, i went w.nicole..this year we lost, but we'll get em back next year! we had an okay year, it couldve been better tho..we came out as 2-8...i didnt do much the rest of the day, helped my dad outside for a little while, watched some movies, helped my mom cook, ate, now im just hanging around for the rest of the night. tomorrow i might go take hannah and drew *the kids i babysit* to go see spongebob cuz theyve been wanting to. i also might see kaitie, she was gonna DL christmas w.the kranks, so we dont havta go to the theaters and see it lmao. then saturday nicole is having her 16th birthday party, and olympia, jess, gina, patrick, and a bunch of her other friends are going..she said theres going to be about 70 people there, so fun fun. well theres not much else...wed. was our pep rally, and man this year it sucked, last years was sooo much better...but yep im gonna go happy thanksgiving all!



I wish we never,
Wish we never
Wish we never met
'Cause now I've got my heart set on you

But i look away
Tabs to pay,
Lies to say
Like how are you?
Oh, I'm fine..
Oh I'm doing fine.

hey pplz..yeah its halloween..it was sorta like every other day except i dressed up as a smurf and went trick or treating..lol. too old but hey it was something to do. saw 2 pretty cuties and found out one of them goes to my school so hopefully ill see him at school. he said he was a cutip? haha im like good costume..never thought of a cutip...but yeah. got a shitload of candy. gave some of it to kaitie's mom. the stuff i didnt like anyway. then i got home and my mom stole some of it too. welllll. otherwise my day was boring i stayed here all afternoon.

once again..feeling lonely..
it fucking sucks...but im not going to complain because it gets aggrivating after a while, but whatever...for the rest of the night i think im just going to lie down and watch scary movies. and eat as much candy as i possibly can. leave something if you love me

xoxo
~Jen

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my computer was fucked all last week. now its finally fixed...=) WE WON OUR FIRST FOOTBALL GAME TODAY!!! there was a fight too lol. 38-14. and homecoming was lastnight, it was a bit boring..could have been better. chris didnt even show up. he was one of the reasons i went. i invited nicole and i hope she had fun. i saw tim there too. welllllllllll..theres a lot of shit i could write but i dont really feel like writing anything...no school monday or tuesday..w00t! well leave it.
xoxo~
~Jen

wellllll havent updated in a while so i thought i should. things have been going okay lately. one min ill be happy tho and the next ill be sad. like today. long story but i got lost in mass for like 2 hrs and came home and got in trobule and ended up getting in a fight with my parents, running up the street to mrs lassards, cuz im babysitting bear so no one was there and she said i could go up there.

friday i saw the grudge with steph and nicole. pretty good movie, cept the sucky ending. but it was good. i saw ouveanna and her friend, amanda, ashley, chelsea & andrea, and they were all in the same movie we were lol. i got my eyebrows done! i needed em. and then we saw josh, and later on we saw kim and daryl getting out of the movies. the rent-a-cop was following us.

"TELL THE TRUTH!" "RESPECT ME AS A HUMAN BEING TO TELL THE TRUTH"
lmaaoo...good times.

next week is homecoming! im excited!! im alsssso hoping we'll win our first football game of the season! we suck this year 0-6.


well yeah im ranting..im doing nothing but i was on the phone with paulo and laura for like an hour..man laura can yap when she hasta LMAO. well ttyl, leave it pplz!

um i took the pic out but usher wants to bang me! woot..

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well today was the most boring day EVER. i did much of nothing for the day..talked on the phone, sat around, did some cleaning...and then i had the phone in my hand and i went to go wash my hands and then the phone fell in the sink i was like OMGGGG and it was like 20 mins after my parents left so i asked jacob what to do cuz i didnt know what to do lol and he told me to get the hairdryer and blowdry it..and like 5 mins before my parents walked in the door it started working!! lol so they didnt know a thing :) cuz im good like that :P hehe well, maybe ill write later --->buzz<--- aka jen

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hey peoples..last night i slept over my friends house..we had fun..we watched the princess diaries..listened to some ashlee simspon..looked at pictures then watched old school (FUNNY MOVIE LMAO)
anyway then she fell asleep but then i got pushed off the bed..how lovely at 130 in the morning eh? so i just decided to read my book because i was TOTALLY AWAKE. i mean and it was fucking hot in her room but then i got bored and she was taking up the whole bed so i was like hey ill go on the couch but then 20 mins later i went back in her room but then i got uncomfortable so i went back on the couch..i couldnt sleep it was really hot so i went outside on the porch and sat there for about a half hour..just thinking things over, random things, i almost picked up the phone and called my mother i wanted to talk to someone lol but i couldnt so then i went back in her room and i just stayed put cuz i didnt wanna look like a loser when her brothers and her mom woke up and saw me lying on their couch LOL. i didnt really sleep well i didnt fall asleep till about 230-3 and then i woke up again at 630 then again at 1030 and i just decided to stay up..then we had breakfast and we talked for a little while then at 1130 i got picked up..had fun tho! well thats my day yesterday..leave me something nice *muah*
and gorilla, if u read this again, hahah i dont really care if i said your hair looked like shit because i dont like you and u dont like me so why do you still continue to prove something? because you CANT and if im a white bitch then your a black bitch! it goes either way sweets! and im not "steppin up" as you would say because i dont have a reason to step it up to you because i have a strong hate towards you and im just gonna ignore ya..so whatever

--->Buzz<---
aka jen

hey all. did nothing today really. ouveanna came over for a little at like 230 and we watched joy ride and talked..then at 430 she left and nicole came and picked me up and we went to the movies..for the zillionth time going to the movies, but connectcuit has nothing better to do. so. and plus, i didnt have to pay because i had no money lol. well, my last entry was rather depressing, long and boring, but hey. i have to get it out somewhere. this seems to be the place. i have to watch what i say on here because i dont know how to make it "friends only" so users can only see, so i have to watch what i say about certain things. well..i have nothing else to add except school starts soon, and im really not looking forward to it AT ALL. i mean not at all. i hate my school, i really really hate my school. and im one of those people who dont like very many people unless theyre really nice to me. i hated soo many people this year and i had a big mouth so im going to change opening my mouth, but im still going to like who i want ya know? and i am hoping this year there wont be as many distractions as i had this year..for some reason i had so many distractions..but oh well. and i really am going to focus on my grades this year..im gonna go tho ttyl all

--->Buzz<---
aka Jen

Who is your favorite Cup driver?: Kevieee
Who is your least favorite?: Kurt and Tony
Who is your favorite Busch driver?: Shane Hmiel
Who is your least favorite?: Kyle Busch
Who is your favorite Truck driver?: dont like truck guys
Who is your least favorite?: Dont follow it enough

Rookies
Who is your favorite rookie?: Khase Khane
Who is your least favorite?: Kyle Bussch
Who will win rookie of the year?: Busch series: Martin Cup series: Kasey
Which rookie will probably win first?: eh, the one I care about already won
Which rookie will finish highest in points?: Martin

controversy
What do you think of no racing when the caution comes out?: I like the fact it was made for safety reasons, but the whole concept of nascar isn't safe, so I think it's dumb
What do you think of the lucky dog pass?: messed up
What do you think of SAFER barriers at Darlington?: good deal
What do you think of the field fillers?: eh dont know what those are lmao
What do you think of the Buschwackers?: its dumb
What do you think of the Scott Wimmer situation?: Don't have an opinion.
Do you believe the Daytona 500 race was "fixed"?: um not really

Other Random Questions
What do you think of Carl Long's accident at Rockingham?: it was bad
Did you feel like donating money to him to help him with his racecar?: i have no moeny lmao
Did you donate money?: That's a negative
What is your favorite track to watch the drivers race at?: Bristol and Daytona
What is your least favorite?: tracks where nothing happen
Do you like to play NASCAR video games?: yes
If yes, what is your favorite track to race at?: Daytona
Your least favorite?: ones im not good at lmao
Who do you think causes the most accidents in the Cup series?: kurt busch or some dumb person who cant drive

This or That
Young guns or veterans: The combination of the two
Dale Earnhardt or Richard Petty: Dale Earnhardt
Dale Earnhardt or Dale Earnhardt Jr.: Jr
Bill Elliott limited schedule or Bill Elliott full schedule: who cares
Kasey Kahne or Bill Elliott: KASEY!!!
Who is your favorite young gun? (under or around 30):kevie :)
Who is your favorite veteran? (over 40): Dale Jarrett
Which of those two do you like better?: Jr
DEI or Richard Childress: umm both

More Random questions
Have you ever been to a NASCAR race?: no
Where and when was it?: read above buddy
Would you rather watch the race on t.v. or watch it live?: live
What was your favorite race to watch last year?: any night race
What was your least favorite race to watch last year?: boring ones

Types of tracks
Do you like to watch NASCAR on short tracks?: yes
Intermediate tracks?: no
Short tracks?: umm, yes...again...
Restrictor plate tracks?: not really
Flat tracks?: i guess
Road courses?: I like them
What do you think of the drivers who race just the road courses?: better than field fillers
What did you think of the Jimmy Spencer vs./ Kurt Busch incidents?: GOOOOOOOOO JIMMYYYYY!!! (good answer kristen lmao)
This or That: Jimmy Spencer or Kurt Busch: kurt busch can die..i think u know my answer
Were you booing Kurt Busch after the Sharpie 500?: Yes the hell I was :)
Do you like to watch night races?: Yes
What do you think of Darlington moving from Labor Day to November?: Nascar can get on my nuts, thank you
Do you think NASCAR should race at Rockingham in 2005?: Yes I do..ass cracks
What do you think of the new points system?: It sucks balls..reward the best driver for the whole year, thank you
Describe the perfect points system for NASCAR: something like it was before lmao
Do you like races finishing under the caution?: who does? even if its ur fav driver i dontlike it
Do you like the green, white, checkered finished in the Truck Series better: Yes
If you had the chance to race one Cup race, where would you race?: Daytona or bristol..beat the ppl i hate lmao
If you had the chance, would you travel in an rv to all the Cup races?: OMG...duh
What is your favorite NASCAR Cup owner?: dont have one
Did you like it when Joe Gibbs was going back to football?: Doesnt affect me...
What is your favorite NASCAR team?: uh..goodwrench
How bad do you have it?: damn bad:)