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bell12804
19 September 2020 @ 10:44 pm

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bell12804
26 August 2014 @ 05:35 pm
im  in this contest. and im trying to win a new camera, it would be great if you could vote a ten for me everyday (only one vote per day u can do tho) and send it to some of your friends, cuz im in first place right now but alot of people downvote, but it would be awesome if you guys could help me. you dont need to register or anything! just click here...


http://www.sugarloot.com/entry/926563282



THANK YOUUUU
 
 
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bell12804

 i decided to keep this livejournal.

god damnit, everyone was right. i feel so used, and im broken, and my heart is slowing breaking. all i wanted was a good person in my life. he was wise about things i wasn't. i thought we would be happy together. but it was all really just a joke and i was used and fucking played. you wanna go have fun with the people that DONT LIKE YOU, YOU DONT LIKE THEM, YOU SAID YOU WENT THERE FOR ME, AND ALL THAT WAS JUST A LIE I GUESS HUH? im so angry right now. you dont deserve me. everyone said i could have gotten better. BUT I DIDNT WANT BETTER. i wanted the 26 year old with a kid, that was in the middle of a divorce, a happy guy at one point, and wnated to help him through and be there for him and it didnt go the way we planned. i rememebr when i first met you. you were great. you were perfect, actually. i was scared, and nervous, and it took us months to finally talk. months to finally touch lips. dammit, why did you have to turn out to be the guy everyone said you would be? i gave you third, FOURTH fucking chances and you blew all of them.

 

i just wanted you to want me. and i know you did. you told me.

but you fucking broke me. why did you have to turn out like this? why couldnt you keep your word?

 
 
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: leona lewis- bleeding love
 
 
bell12804
17 February 2012 @ 09:44 pm
things never get better in this house....i come home i was gone from 345 to like 830 cuz i was babysitting and then i helped clean because they are going to maine tomorrow so yeah i stayed there. i come home and 5 mins after i come home my mom is screaming and bitching and wont shut up and it ended in an arguement. im sick of everything. i hate yelling. i hate screaming. i hate crying my eyes out in the shower. i hate that i have to cover my mouth so the cries wont be heard. i seriously had a mental breakdown. everything is stored up inside of me and now this is whats happening. everything has been going great at school. i havent had any problems and everything is fine. but yeah, i hate everything is fucked right now.
 
 
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
 
 
bell12804
11 December 2011 @ 11:37 am
EDIT: Yeah i overreacted..my dad lied so i got really mad.. but im still really pissed at him...
 
 
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
 
 
 
bell12804
17 June 2011 @ 10:14 pm
hmmm  


im going to rant about some things. you've been warned...Collapse )

my birthday is in a week. im so. fucking. excited.


 
 
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Current Music: Coldplay-What if
 
 
bell12804
11 April 2011 @ 10:35 pm
today was a slow, boring, but yet easy day. first per. i got to watch simpsons episodes lol. i was supposed to film my campaign thing but mr. wanzer wasnt there so....


i keep having random shit keep popping into my head. old memories that i didnt want to remember. things that drive me NUTS. gr. things that i shouldnt be thinking about at all. a few things have been bothering me that i'm not going to mention here....but it just irritates the fuck out of me. i hate being like this. i'm sick of feeling like this!!! it ruins everything. im stuck in a place where everything is just a negative feeling...where all the words out of my motuh come out in a negative way or say negative things...either about myself, my friends, other people, or the way my life is totally and utterly wrong. i need some time to myself......like, alot of freakin' time.

not trying to sound like a depressed asshole, because i'm not, im just simply not happy. not happy with me and its really hard to change how i am.


"Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete" ~incomplete


totally fricken love that song.

my honey's bday is this saturday. i wish i was there to celebrate with him </3. done rambling. tata my honey's. xoxo ~Jen
 
 
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Current Music: 3 Doors down-Let me go
 
 
bell12804
17 March 2011 @ 04:33 pm


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bell12804
25 November 2010 @ 06:05 pm
happy thanksgiving ya'll....well lets see..today was our annual football game vs fermi, i went w.nicole..this year we lost, but we'll get em back next year! we had an okay year, it couldve been better tho..we came out as 2-8...i didnt do much the rest of the day, helped my dad outside for a little while, watched some movies, helped my mom cook, ate, now im just hanging around for the rest of the night. tomorrow i might go take hannah and drew *the kids i babysit* to go see spongebob cuz theyve been wanting to. i also might see kaitie, she was gonna DL christmas w.the kranks, so we dont havta go to the theaters and see it lmao. then saturday nicole is having her 16th birthday party, and olympia, jess, gina, patrick, and a bunch of her other friends are going..she said theres going to be about 70 people there, so fun fun. well theres not much else...wed. was our pep rally, and man this year it sucked, last years was sooo much better...but yep im gonna go happy thanksgiving all!



I wish we never,
Wish we never
Wish we never met
'Cause now I've got my heart set on you

But i look away
Tabs to pay,
Lies to say
Like how are you?
Oh, I'm fine..
Oh I'm doing fine.
 
 
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Switchfoot- Dare you to move
 
 
bell12804
31 October 2010 @ 11:43 pm
hey pplz..yeah its halloween..it was sorta like every other day except i dressed up as a smurf and went trick or treating..lol. too old but hey it was something to do. saw 2 pretty cuties and found out one of them goes to my school so hopefully ill see him at school. he said he was a cutip? haha im like good costume..never thought of a cutip...but yeah. got a shitload of candy. gave some of it to kaitie's mom. the stuff i didnt like anyway. then i got home and my mom stole some of it too. welllll. otherwise my day was boring i stayed here all afternoon.

once again..feeling lonely..
it fucking sucks...but im not going to complain because it gets aggrivating after a while, but whatever...for the rest of the night i think im just going to lie down and watch scary movies. and eat as much candy as i possibly can. leave something if you love me

xoxo
~Jen



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Current Music: Maria-I give, you take